I'm so bored.

YEAY!hehe

I just checked my status in the application for the relief teacher position,nnn its approved...Just soo glad..Kaykay,i'm so going to call the school..

EPPS here i come..hehhe..

No more rotting at home..WoootZZZ!

Aniway,tomorows a really,kindda big day for me.

I'm so nervous + anxious to go nnn sign the teacher agreement thingy.
But its kindaa fun huh,being part of the government service..

Been's my dream to be someone useful in the society.

I hope everything's going smoothly tomorrow.(:

Bad part is i've got to wake up DARN early,coz i've got to be there(at BOUNAVISTA!-_-)by 8 AM!

Haissh,got to sleep early..(:

Right now,i'm just feeling that my life's been a rollercoaster.

Everythings moving in full speed.

I kinddaa feel that my future's all planned,nnn its kindda bright.

I've made a HUGE promise to my dad that i will always make him proud nnn study smart as well as study hard..

Guess no more fooling around huh,with 20 subjects that i've gotta cope..

Insyallah,i can cope laa ekh..(:

I know,everyone in my family just has high hope for me.

I don't want to let em' down.(:

Btw,i'm kindda scared that i might not be able to like find a life-partner.(don't know why im thinking bout this..hehehhex)

That's what most of my teachers said.

Its going to be hard i guess,course my time would be packed with school schedules to even think about myself..

First it would be a 4-yrs of studying,getting me an A lvls as well as diploma in teaching.

Next,i'll have to serve 5-yrs of bond with the school..

GOSH,9-yrs of my life dedicated to career..

Ain't that alot???

By the age of 25,i think its rather old right to start finding a 'boyfriend'?hehheehx

Kaykay,guess its too early for me to say this.

But frankly,i'm just lazy to even get to know anyone right now.

Maybe,partly its because i'm afraid to be hurt again....?

But i still wanna open up this heart to someone who would treasure it.Is that so much to ask for?

Starting all over again is really hard for me.I really thought that my last r'ship would last.Infact that was my first time,a guy ever ask for break.

Maybe that's what,is making me holding back my love.

But what could i do.It was so fast.

Everything just ended so horribly,nnn i'm so affected.

How i wish i could just turn back time nnn not let my heart get so emotionally attached with him.

How i wish i could,then perhaps,it would be easier for me to let it go...

But its all too late,i'll still have to let it go.Urgh wateva,should

just stop whining now.hhehehx..

(:

I kindda,wanna bring up about something that i've been observing.

It's just making me uneasy nnn guilty.

I don't mean to make anyone small at all.
But everytime when a guy wants to know me,they just kindda avoid me when i have a higher education then em' nnn that's pissing me off.

i appreciate who they are,never once did i ever look at em' like they are some ALIEN.

Ain't ITE students still humans??I can bravely say that these are the guys who really has the heart.They are just so sensitive towards other people's feelings,nnn thats what that makes em' special.They understand the meaning of life nnn therefore,teaching us too.

So why is it that some people just despise em'.

I just don't get it.

Nnn some just don't want to be friends with me,course they say,'I tak setaraf seyhh ngan u.'

I hate it when they say that.

Especially when they repeatedly say that they are 'dumb people'.

Somehow,its getting on my nerves.

So,in this post,i just wanna clear things up,that i'm not 'sombong'.

In the other hand,i am really glad if you guys appreciate yourselves,course i do.(: