Why..

Why. i don't know. very shitty and crappy. watever again i'm lost. what the hell went wrong. i don 't think its me. its you. how am i suppose to understand. where do i stand. i'm rubbish right. i'm a piece of shit what. no meaning. meaningless. can dump me when you don't need already. i'm so in love with you. i cannot forget you. i cannot eat. cannot sleep. cannot do homework but just stare at ceiling for god damn hours. i can't be bothered to type properly. so strain your eyes and figure out what has happened to me. i'm going crazy. my mistake. my mistake. my mistake to fall in love with someone like you. i should know where i stand. i'm a nobody. i must be the most stupid girl. to actually think you would fall for me. lol. urgh. ignore. avoid. do watever you want. but i'm still loving you. stupid right. i know. why. i also don't have the fucking answer. why love. why not hate. i don't know. i want to cut that heart open to get my answers. what for. he'll die right. oh my god. i sound bloody insane. see what you've done. im typing aimlessly and not knowing what should be done. a moment ago you were fine. then not fine. then fine again. then not. fine. not. fine. not. WTH. where. im stuck. oh god it sux to be me. sometimes okay. not okay. okay. not okay. how. to. understand. what the hell. no point thinking bout the past. reli no use. its nothing already. why go out if you want to end it this way. why give me hopes when you're gonna shatter it. fuck lah. i cannot bloody stop crying. cry. cry. cry. cry. shit. shit. shit. okay just shit. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. Please don't do this. don't. can kill me if you want. but don't go silent. oh god. i did something wrong is it. what. when. how. i love you. i hate you. and i know you hate me right. i'm hanging. you hanged me. do you even loved me. have you ever. it's gone. just like that. why. do i deserve these. is it wrong to love. is it. why. see just how many whys in me. you left. why. you killed me. why. you left me stranded. why. you don't want to talk. why. why. why. crap lah. i want to stop. just stop crying. it sux. stupid me. foolish me. so foolish. cos im loving you. i should not have loved you. i should stop. like now. whatever. i'm out of your heart. out of everything. your life. your everything. oh god. what the hell. im ranting. never ending rantings. you guys are bored. but i still have loads to say. come back. please. sad. a hug. a kiss. a warm touch. never meant a thing at all. kay bye.
It's stupid. It's me.