Happy 9 Monthsary...

I wish i could write how awesome it was today. And how the person who mean the world to me just spent this day with me. But honestly, he has yet to understand me that much. I give my all for this relationship and it hurts me that he would feel that way. I'm not some girl who demands for things and materialistic. All i'm asking for is just spare me some love, care and concern. Just a tiny bit would make me happy. I'm so saddened by the fact that he just wouldn't want to spend time with me as he has nothing for me. So your love isn't something for me? IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH, BUT YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND.
I don't know why but i'm just really sad. No one has ever said to me that they were lazy to meet me, that too, on this day. Fair enough. And as a girl, don't expect me to insist on going out. I mean like i have my pride too. I can't always be the one going after you. I've had it once and i'm sick and tired of going after someone like a mad lover. And things just have to go wrong today. It's just great. I'm gonna be in a prolonged sadness again. It's so hard for me to go out now and it's just so easy for him to say he's lazy to meet me. I just don't know what else to say. I just wish he knew how i feel now. :'(
And now, i'm being stubborn not answering his calls and his texts messages. :'(
But i can't bring myself to talk to him already. I feel like i'm crying more often than laughing with him. Why is this so? :'(
*sigh*. Don't i have the right to be angry and sad when i'm treated this way... And so he said that there's still other days to meet..right, absolutely right. So till that other days come, till then i'm never gonna initiate any meetup. It's always me. I guess once and for all, i'm going to hold myself back. There's no point now giving my all, i'm just getting all messed up and hurt. And was i the one who said i was lazy to meet you? Wasn't it all part of teasing you..so again, it is my fault. Been patient with all my might. I'm just hoping my patience will never run dry, cause i really need it to be strong. In time to come, i hope i'll get used to all this so that i'll never get this throbbing ache in my heart. How true can it be that the one that you love most, causes you the most pain. I've got a taste of my own love.


Yesterday will remain as yesterday. 
Today will be yesterday and today will never be tomorrow.