hLaOtVeE you .

Been some time since i update this blog. That's because i'm more in love with mini bites rantings. Yes, twitter. If you guys wanna stalk me, yeap, i'm more active there. It's public. Love, hate, idc.
So anyway, it's in the wee hours now, and i should be sleeping. Boyfriend's asleep already. Had a fight with him just now. *sigh* But i guess, i shall write something here.

(I know i'm supposed to post my Shopping Haul post like yesterday, but i'm still lazy..No feel.Only got feel for THIS post.)

Seriously, i can never say it was a fight even. Cause in the end he eventually made me laugh and bought me McDonalds. Yes, it sounds crazy. I feel crazy you know to cry like one stupid girl who lost her precious gem and then laughing again like a little girl who got her chocolate ice cream. He really drives me crazy. I really, honestly, HATED him just now. Like he was a jerk lah. Haish, but he just know the right moves to make me smile again. i know i looked horrible just now after crying so bad. I can still feel the strain in my eyes now after sobbing so hard. But he still said i looked just fine. :")
Shall not elaborate about what happened, but basically, i was just freaking upset that he somewhat did not appreciate or want to spend time with me. So that's about it.

Damn, i hate that i love him so much at times. Seriously.
Even though at times, he really hurts me with his stupid jokes or his idiotic teasing and being all irritating, i know that deep down it's those heart felt pain that will make me miss him if ever he's gonna leave me. Because there's never a single soul that could tease me till i cry and then make me laugh all over again with the lame but cute 'pujuk-ings'. I sometimes hate the fact that i'm fucking sensitive. But i can't help it. I'm just this girl that gets overwhelming eruptions of emotions when words are quite sharp or just rude or just anything that might cut me. See, even my words are just so poetic and full of emotions. I write when feelings are there. I can never write when the mood or feeling is not right.
He's my expressionless idiot boyfriend who always makes me yearn to understand his way of loving me. It's different, hurtful, angryful, happyful, crazyful, stupid fool. Haha.
I just wish he would be hopeless romantic like me, but i guess not everyone's like me...

My twitter seems to be full of my hurt remarks. I was bloody hurt just now. But everything's fine now.
Still loving that boy. Irritating like hell but that's what that makes me know he loves me.
I have my limits too and yes, if loving him too much becomes my weakness and his strength to take things for granted, then i guess it will be actions and not talk only. I hated the 'NATO' he mentioned. It may seems i always say things that contradict my actions, but that's just because i can't bear to hurt him, although i'm the one getting all screwed up at the end of the day. But if i can't hold it any longer, it's sad to say that i might do the things i say. Taking each other for granted is a huge cause of problems, so best avoid IT.

Idk what else to write anymore.
Shall end here then.
Still love him like one mad girl.
10 months and still counting with the irritz boy.
So till here, shall sleep now.
Goodnight. xoxo. :)