I shall tear up again and just drift away...

I hate to be in this state.
I've got nowhere to go.
I need to choose, but how do i choose.
How am i suppose to choose.
It's never going to be the same, when both knows.
I'm going to hurt someone by going away.
But by staying, im also cheating myself.
I'll be lying to myself in that relation cause only he will suffer.
And i don't want that to happen.
I can't.
I guess its true, a girl and a boy can never be friends.
Oh god, why can't it be.
And now both ways, its gonna hurt.
I can't.
I just can't be more than that.
Now i feel like just going away...
I'm sorry.. :'(